It's so frustrating...

to see how you are unable to perform. to grow. to raise from the crowd and defend yourself. it's so frustrating... to see how others have more guts than you do... when in fact they don't. just that... they have less to lose than you. and it's so frustrating. to have no hope. that something is going to change. that you are going to evolve. it's so frustrating... to share the same dreams like others without having the same resources.

it's frustrating to deal with people which you had expectations from. it's frustrating to see that they lied. and that their lies keep them warm, leaving you aside. in a black hole.

it's frustrating. not being able to protect the ones you love. and it's frustrating... not being able to offer a gift to your boyfriend for his birthday. having to run into the morning to arrive in time at work instead of kissing him good morning and wishing him happy birthday.

it's so frustrating not to be able to find the place you want in life. to see how others go before you just because they know the uncle of the boss of the director of head of the department. and it's so frustrating to see the high expectations that your employer has... by offering nothing.

it's so frustrating... to be living with so many frustrations.