Tuesday 22 May 2012

It's so frustrating...

to see how you are unable to perform. to grow. to raise from the crowd and defend yourself. it's so frustrating... to see how others have more guts than you do... when in fact they don't. just that... they have less to lose than you. and it's so frustrating. to have no hope. that something is going to change. that you are going to evolve. it's so frustrating... to share the same dreams like others without having the same resources.

it's frustrating to deal with people which you had expectations from. it's frustrating to see that they lied. and that their lies keep them warm, leaving you aside. in a black hole.

it's frustrating. not being able to protect the ones you love. and it's frustrating... not being able to offer a gift to your boyfriend for his birthday. having to run into the morning to arrive in time at work instead of kissing him good morning and wishing him happy birthday.

it's so frustrating not to be able to find the place you want in life. to see how others go before you just because they know the uncle of the boss of the director of head of the department. and it's so frustrating to see the high expectations that your employer has... by offering nothing.

it's so frustrating... to be living with so many frustrations.

Wednesday 16 May 2012

The Burnout Syndrome

I have read today an article entitled "How do you know if you suffer of the Burnout Syndrome". I usually don't have the time to read all the newsletters that I receive, but this one raised a question in my head... wtf are they talking about? So, with the courtesy of hipo.ro I found out that it represents a modern professional disease, that affects us all in a certain measure. Of course, as all the diseases, it affects our personal life also. The article is in Romanian, but as I started searching on the Internet I found other materials also.

We all have moments when we feel knocked out, demotivated or bored. Unable to wake up in the morning. The thing is... how often does this happen to you? Does it happen' once a month? Once a week, or every day? Burnout Syndrome - professional tiredness - chronicle fatigue - consists of both phisical and emotional tiredness caused due to continue exposure to stress factors. It shouldn't be confused with stress, which can sometimes become motivational and creative due to the fact that when we are stressed we search solutions to solve things in a better manner.

The main cause of the Burnout Syndrome is the professional workout, combined with the underapreciation of the ones that surround you. Between the causes have been identified: the lack of control over your own activities, unrealistic expectations from your employer, monotonous activities, unsatisfactory and with a high degree of receptivity; working in a chaotic environment or under pressure, without a clear line.

It also combines and appears from our habit of living: taking more responsibility than you are able to fulfill, lack of sleep, more time dedicated to solving problems than to eliminating the causes of the problems, the lack of emotional support, the need to be in control or the pessimistic vision over life.

Wednesday 4 April 2012

Feeling beat up, reloaded

This is the number three thousand seven hundred and seventy something post about my sexual activity. About how I'm fucked up every day by the most wonderful thing in our existence: Life!
I got to think that she's addicted of me ;). I even got to like her because it's different than me. She never gives up, she always has the time to meet with her friends: dream, hope, good mood. She's not the type to kiss and tell, but I personally think she's getting pissed off by her friends who got involved with the wrong partner and grew up bad kids.

Life's... life's like a beach. You are under the impression that everything is OK, that you're safe, but sometimes the waves come and make everything wet.

After all the things we've been through, I got to think that she appreciates me more than I do of her. She didn't took my mother when she was very sick, she changed my father in a good way and she always protected me of the big waves. She gave me the courage to ask back my wallet, to stand up when the car hit me and to love...
 I think somehow we're symbiotic. She likes to have sex with me... and I like the fact that she's always there to save me. To dry my skin in the heat of the sun :).

This is for you, Oana:
And we've realized that we have sex every single fuckin' day... without having orgasms... just getting tired... and joyfully involved sometimes... or just with a big smile on our face.

Thursday 16 February 2012

Particip la Social Media Summit

I received last night the positive answer from the organizers of the Social Media Summit in Bucharest (a Biz  Event).

I can hardly wait to go there and learn new things about Social Networks and about the strategies to be used when developing a Marketing strategy through Social Networks.

I hope to learn how to use my twitter and LinkedIn account in other ways than just amateurish.

I'll tell you everything after :).

Till then,

Don't forget to smile!

Tuesday 7 February 2012

There's never enough time...

One of the last movies I've seen it's called "In Time".

The story wasn't very catchy, for me at least, but as I was in the cinema theater with my friends I didn't had other choice than to watch it... Nevertheless, there was a thing which I cannot deny, captured me. That is the payment method used into the movie, which was nothing more and nothing less than "time".

Synopsis:
When Will Salas is falsely accused of murder, he must figure out a way, with the help of a beautiful hostage, to bring down a system where time is money -- literally -- enabling the wealthy to live forever while the poor, like Will, have to beg, borrow, and steal enough minutes to make it through another day.
Today, I'm fighting with disaster. It's not enough that I don't have money. I don't have time either. I don't have the power and the will to resolve the mysteries from my life. I got to be the person I disliked the most. Unhappy, unfriendly, unappreciative. Though the official currency from my life it's money, I pay with days from my life for all the not working things that happen to me. So there's never enough time to pay for mistakes. And the happiness disappear too fast.

My mom says I'm a fighter. I know I'm a Leo :). So, this Leo, is gonna work her ass hard and make everything as it should. And the hell with the plans that never go as I plan them. I am still going to arrive there, even if it takes me more time than initially planned.

For you mom and for you, destroyed plans... for you hated people which I got to resemble I have this plan. I will succeed! No matter how much it's gonna take to and how hard it will be.